GROW UP AND BLOW AWAY

hari yang baek

2009-08-28T20:43:00.000-07:00

pagi tadi, aku kemas bilik. bukan bilik air, tapi bilik tido aku yang kadang2 aku sendiri pun geli nak pijak. macam perut sotong. (kelam dan tak berapa bersih sangat,silap2 boleh tergelincir jatuh).

kemas punya kemas, macam-macam bende aku jumpa..benda2 tu adalah seperti :

surat cinta taim form2 dulu

majalah sekolah taim aku form 1

test pad yang hilang taim aku balik sebelum ne

kad sim adek aku(patutla dia saspek aku yang hilangkan)

pendrive yang ader semua kertas kerja2 aku

bende2 ne sume dah lame aku carik..
dulu taim carik takde pun.
hari ne ader plak.
ne yang aku nak kata bilik aku ade bunian yang jagekan bilik aku ne. (cis,mistik!)

cerita tiga

2009-08-27T01:12:00.000-07:00

lagu untuk kamu (:

ku berjalan terus tanpa henti
dan dia pun kini telah pergi
ku berdoa di tengah
indahnya dunia
ku berdoa untuk dia yang kurindukan

memohon untuk tetap tinggal
dan jangan engkau pergi lagi
berselimut di tengah dingin dunia
berselimut dengan dia yang kurindukan

would it be nice to hold you ..
would it be nice to take you home..
would it be nice to kiss you..

memohon untuk tetap tinggal
dan jangan engkau pergi lagi
bernyanyilah na na na na na
bernyanyilah untuk dia yang kurindukan

would it be nice to hold you ..
would it be nice to take you home ..
would it be nice to kiss you..

jangan pernah lupakan aku
jangan hilangkan diriku
jangan pernah lupakan aku
jangan hilangkan diriku
jangan pernah lupakan aku
jangan pergi dari aku

cerita dua

2009-08-27T00:29:00.000-07:00

BAYI DIBUANG

uproaaaaaaaaaaaar!
tulah pekataannye nak menggambarkan keadaan sekolah aku yang tercinta tu pada ketengaharian tersebut. aku takkan lupe ah! chaet!

sekitar jam 12..abes paper bio 2..

teacher lidya : did y all heard sometg?

murid-murid : dengar ape teacher? (sekadar mendaulatkan bahase melayu)

teacher lidya : dengar ape ape lahh (beliau pun melayu jugak)

murid-murid : isy,teacher ne,habaq je lahh.. ( melayu kedah budak-budak ne)

teacher lidya : its ok. kalau awak sume dengar apa apa pun,jangan buat kecoh. (tersengeh-sengeh)

semua murid-murid : isy,pehal teacher lidya tu /apa jadi wehhh?/awat,dia nak nikah ke?/ dll

aku? hurmm... : sekolah ne nak kena jual ke?

sekitar jam 12 lebih-lebih banyak...

che up : aaaaaaaaa! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! aku taw dah! aku taw dah! cepat-cepat aku nak bisik!!!!(semua boys kelas aku pun pegilar...)

che up : ADA ORANG BUANG BAYI!!!!!!!!!!!! (serioussss dia sangat berbisik)

ha?ha?ha?ha?ha?ha?ha?ha?
(bunyi yang paling frequent aku dengar..)

"ada orang buang bayi kat dalam toilet boys kat floor library"
tulahh die.

nab's highlight :

hisyyyy..tu lar festaim dalam hidup aku dengar benda2 macam ne betul2 kat tepi telinga. (sebab mata aku tak tengok pun).. dengar ceritanya..baby tu dah kembung pun sebab dah buang banyak hari.. toilet tu orang tak guna pun... wat tempat salen baju boys je... punyelahh kelam kabut sekolah aku tu dek mayat tu. mayat beb.. sekolah aku tu.. tercacak cacak jugak lar ape yang patut.. nasib baeklar paper 3 bio petang tu tak kuar pasal reproduction..kalau tak,mawu termuntah jugaklah kau dan kawan-kawan feminin yang laen dek mengenangkan ader mayat kat sekolah aku tu... mayat baby lak tu.. hm..masuk syurga al jannah budak tu.. tapi..

SIAPA IBUNYE????

Ne lar persoalan semua orang.. tapi alhamdulillah sebab dari awal lagi, suspek utama bukanlahh students saina.. maknenye aku pun tak disaspek sangat. hebat lar macam tu! gagaga..

maka,esoktu,berdentum dentam pum pum pam pommm lah!
semua paper pun cerita..malam sebelum tu, seap keluar buletin utama! hahahaha

hebat jugak sekolahhh aku tu. tapi, hebat lagi makcik cleaner yang sanggup buat benda yang satu dunia kutuk tu.. haihhhhh.. ada saiko problem agaknye..anak sendiri pun nak bagi tidur dalam mangkuk flushhhh... al-fatihah..

cerita satu

2009-08-26T23:58:00.000-07:00

KERTAS PEPERIKSAAN

aku pasti dan yaken sesungguhnya susah hendak mencari manusia yang suka akan benda alah -dia atas ini. dalam bahasa perancisnye dipanggil fuckelooo deoamatodes- carbonlara. ngah ngahaha.

mak ai..boleh tahan jugaklah jawapan-jawapannye..susah aku nak pike maaa..tu pasal banyak aku letak jawapan atok aku ajo jew..die ajor kalo tak taw,cakap tak taw, jangan nak nipu cikgu..tak baik.. j

jadi,asal ader jawapan yang aku tak ingat,tak sempat baca atau tak terluah dek dakwat pen.. aku letak je tanda tak taw.. cikgu2 pun paham.. aku pun tak payah nak perah2 otot2 kat otak aku nehh nak pike jawapan yang bukan bukan.. kome sume tawu tak tandanye?

hm...menurut nek aku,ilmu wajib dikongsi..

ne ha,tandanya :

-

nampak tak?aku magnify siket..

_

nampak??

ha tu lahhh tandanya..bukan ape,jimat dakwat pen kilometrico hitam aku tu..kadang kadang aku pakai g-soft..takdenye pilot pilot macam kome..

apa yang penting?
jawapan aku tak akan bertanda cetu kalau soalannye senanggggg..haihhh!

bapaku pulang dari kotaraya!

2009-08-26T23:56:00.000-07:00

BACK!

haihhhh. rindu siot ngan umah nab
yang terchentaa neh! wahahaha. ne bawu nak update blog.
almaklom akan naseb aku taun ne yang
terpaksa ngadap buku dengan sepenuhh jiwa raga.

wahhh! wahh! wahhhh!

teruskan membaca kepingan kepingan entry kuuh yer!

pen on!

2009-07-24T20:38:00.000-07:00

ermhm!

aku nak pegi amek exam trial SPM jap!

u can pray foe me.
u can apologies me.
u can miss me.
u can't be me!

haihhh..kan senang kalo aku ada mesin bley tuka orang len masuk badan aku, peh tu, die gi sit foe the exam, then die buat elok-elok, bagi dapat seratus suma paper.. then aku tukar balik badan ngn dia, rejam dia dalam sungai bagi takde orang tau, tapi aku tak matikan dia, sebab nanti spm betul nak pakai dia lagi. hah! best siot camtu!

aisy!

2009-07-24T20:19:00.000-07:00

current status?

oh dunia. bantulahh aku.

ade ke patut, seseorang yang telah anda tinggalkan walaupun tanpa rela,(ini kes cheyynta ye!) berpura-pura seperti anda tidak pernah meninggalkan beliau, walhal anda telah berkali-kali meminta ampun & maap kerana terpaksa meninggalkan beliau walaupun tanpa persetujuan kedua-dua belah pihak lantas anda sering kali mengelak daripada berhubungan dengan beliau untuk beberapa detik namun lalety ini, beliau semakin menunjukkan kesungguhan untuk membatalkan cerai tersebut dengan alasan-alasan menyayat hati dan hujung-hujung jari anda dan menyebabkan lagu2 jiwang seperti 'cinta untuk nabila','winter sonata','ada untukkmu' dan 'relaku pujuk' semakin berrentakkan dan meruntun perasaan, yang akhirnya menyebabkan anda...

..berasa patut kembali kepada beliau?
haihhhhh...

siapa sayangsss siapa? :[

2009-07-24T19:51:00.000-07:00

"I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete."

penah tak korang rasa susah bila
korang sayang amat sama orang?

begitu juge

orang-orang itu sayang amat
sama korang?

sayang sekolahhh?

2009-07-24T19:41:00.000-07:00

off for two days.

"sekolahh saya yang indah dan disayangi ramai itu telah membenarkan banduan2 ungunya bercuti sependek DUA HARI. oklarrr. tambah2 tuk orang cam aku yang da lama tak pijak ambal rumah dan makan pakai sudu garfu ibu nehh."

live up hopes!

2009-07-20T17:42:00.000-07:00

english assignment :

My Aim for This Coming Trial And The Strategies I Have To Achieve It!

There is less than 2 weeks for me to sit for the trial exam. Its not about ‘just an exam’,but definitely more than that. Referring on my recent mid-year result, I think nobody will do good judgement on what I have done on pursueing the dream ,

or to be exact : the ainnabila’s dream.

so,what’s next? the dream is still the dream.
the difference is now, the dream will be follow by an appropriate effective actions.
The dream was always running ahead of me.
To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it,
that was the miracle. When we are dreaming alone it is only a dream.
When we are dreaming with others, it is the beginning of reality.
So, I will share my dream with the world with the people I love, with the people who love me and with the people I want to achieve the dream with.
Straight A’s.
Some men see things as they are and say, "Why?"
I dream of things that never were and say, "Why not?".
If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving,
you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all.
And so today I still have a dream.
so, in achieving my goal in this trial,
I would definitely put my hardest effort.
I hope the remaining time is adequate to do some preparation.
I will struggle very hard to revise on topics especially the form five topics as I have not mastered in the topics yet compared to last year’s topics.
I don’t care not to sleep all night long to do revisions and exercise.
Even, I don’t even bother to leave my recess time without having
any meal or a trip to canteen..
though it is a suffer to me.
I appreciate the every moment I have and are always in plan
that the time will benefits me.
I pray yassin and tawakkal a lot to The Almighty..
in doing my final acceleration,

I really hope that the person who inspires
me the most will still intends to do that always.
We are all motivated by a keen desire for praise,
and the better a man is,

the more he is inspired to glory.

reflect thoughts on PPSMI.

2009-07-12T20:09:00.000-07:00

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah :
seseorang yang maseh berharap untuk terus berkaseh dengan bekas kekasehnya yang bernama nab.

2. Saya sedang mendengar :
lagu ngong yang mengulang2 perkataan jay-hooooo!

3. Mungkin saya patut :
behenti sekolah dan keje kat fast fuds.

4. Saya TAK suka :
dipanggil ain oleh orang yang saya sayanggg.

6. Saya tak paham :
vector,add maths. electronics,phisics.

7. Saya kehilangan :
kaca mata beberapa minggu lalu akibat dicilok pencilok semase weddin pak cik saia.

8. Ramai yang berkata :
mereka sayang saya. haha

9. Makna nama saya :
tahle.

10. Cinta itu adalah :
satu perkataan.

12. Saya akan cuba :
mencuba apa apa yang boleh dicuba.

13. Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud :
degil! haha. tu cam diri sendiri tuhhh..

14. Telefon bimbit saya :
selalu mandi bersama tuannye. TQ

15. Bila saya terjaga dari tidur :
saya akan pandang kanan dan tidur balik...

16. Saya paling meluat apabila :
melihat orang yang saya meluat..haihh

17. Pesta/Parti adalah :
medium komunikasi dan wahana sosialisme.

18. Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah :
tiada haiwan yang saya rasekan comel. tapi tahukan anda memerang tinggal dalam air? haha

19. Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah :
6!

20.Hari ini :
sake kena belajar kimia sebelum makan lunch. perhhhh, sikse!

21. Malam ini saya akan :
ada kelas bioloGy! wadushhhh
iron baju sekolah seap2! (arinehh pakai baju tak iron datang sekolah sbb blackout tadi pagi!)

22. Esok pula saya akan :
tidak tidur dalam kelas dan berharap ada cikgu yang bermurah hati (spt ckgu english) yang mawu bawak kitowang ke lab nehh!

23. Saya betul-betul inginkan :
9A1----menjadi seorang peguam, tidak ditinggalkan.

24. Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini :
buruknye baju tak ironn!

25. Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan :
sweetest things.

26. Makanan Barat atau Jepun :
both.

27. Bilik yang terang atau gelap :
terang pasti.

28. Makanan segera adalah :
makanan ruji ainnabila sehingga dia menghidap beberapa penyaket separa kronik dala idupnye..

29. Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang:
pinjam pendrive? ( kat amy tadi sbb tak de pdrive dehhh)

sayotata.

$

2009-07-12T19:59:00.000-07:00

nab rase hari ni,

"why are people always leaving?"

its hard foe me to rite now..

this picture demn fascinated. though it was just a color pencils arranged together. it means more than just a picture dear people.

liteworking

2009-07-12T19:50:00.000-07:00

i dont knoe i feel so closed to this phrase.

myb the situation atm is vry much related to this.

haihhhhhh..

im bigger than my sistahh.

2009-07-12T19:40:00.000-07:00

theres no reason foe me to post this. just wanna tell my sister that i miss her demn much. dehhhh.

quotie shuqqie

2009-07-05T19:50:00.000-07:00

" You know what's the worst thing
about somebody breaking up with you?
It's when you remember
how little you thought about
the people you broke up with
and you realize
that is how little they're
thinking of you.
You know, you'd like to think you're both
in all this pain but they're just like
"Hey, I'm glad you're gone ".

t h i s i s n o t w h a t I f e e l o n h i m.

just to share

2009-07-05T19:41:00.000-07:00

Interview Tips:

Do some research on the business before the interview. (See "How to Find a Job," "Research the Employer.")

Practice interviewing

Go alone. Do not take children or friends.

Greet the employer with a handshake.

Make frequent eye contact.

Smile, be polite, and try to relax.

Answer questions as directly as possible.

Be upbeat and make positive statements.

If you've worked before, talk about what you learned from it.

Use examples of how your skills and abilities would fit the job.

Bring your "Fact Sheet" with telephone numbers and addresses of your references and former employers, just in case you are asked to complete an applicatin.

tapi yang paling penting,kena bawak

resume,

and nab still dont have the sheets yet. helllar..o

ANNOUNCEMEMENT

2009-06-12T19:02:00.000-07:00

THIS BLOG WILL SHUT DOWN

*that's explained everything.

nab akan bersekolah asrama penuh(ingat best ke?)
pokok sena sampai August,at least.
memang ****!

take care,jangan nakal-nakal. (:
ingat nab selalu.

suke-suke!

2009-06-12T18:35:00.000-07:00

Nab Sayang Kamu!

haha. tengs ye sebab tolong reload prepaid nab. (:

susah ke folio?

2009-06-12T12:05:00.000-07:00

yayyyyyyyyyyyy!

huray! akernya manusia pemalas dipanggil nab telahpun menyudahhkan folio addmaths nye.(sumpah sikse!)

38 ucapan terimakasih wat mohsan n kawan die dari syed sheh science school yang berjaya menjadikan folio deme sbg scribdd. haihhhh.(38 sbb page nye 38).

nab copy jer dari web
suruh adek nab buat garis2 atas A4 (wajib tulis tangan)
paksa adek sorg gi plak surf gambar
tulis cantek2
gunting
lekattt!

semudah itu!!

Wahaha! nab gumbira. dalam masa 3 jam 40 minit, berjaya sudei folio itu. naty diuploadkan pic nye wahai kalian.

haahahahahahahahaahahahaha (gelak nada ahmad albabb!)

tag terbaru.

2009-06-11T18:58:00.001-07:00

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
react seperti perwire samurai yang dapat pedang baru. test..test..

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
jadik lawyer mesia, dakwe israel,pastikan dorang sume meringkuk sampai mati dalam penjara kajang. haha

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
solie's.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
tayang2 kat depan bill gates. mana tau die jatuh hati ngn nab.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
we were. so tiada pandang belakang.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?.
i blessed someone who loved me. they shud be grateful. nanana

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
3 minit setengah?

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
attached myself together with them. so kite tengok sapa lagi kuat terlekat?

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
nayyyy. tak nak actin,kang liz hurley tak leh cari makan.

10. What takes you down the fastest?
bukan skateboard. Jeep mungkin? hahaha

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
26. cantik.

12. What’s your fear?
atm, andai nab gagal dapat straight a's.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
definitely single and rich.

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
angkat kepala? tu kot. tak kan angkat kaki terus?

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
teramat depends.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
the third one. so simple.

18.would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
tak selalu.

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
oh shit. depends lar ngongg.

20.List 6 people to tag
amek lar sesape nak. it wasnt fun. ):

deflated me.

2009-06-11T18:46:00.000-07:00

i'll be back in school TOMORROW. this is an unpleasant thought. it isn't so because of the prospect of school, but mostly because i am running out of time to do the things i've meticulously exercised in my mind. when you make yourself a concrete picture in your mind, it materializes itself, but with a lazy, sleepy soul like mine, it's without effort that the battle is lost. i am not complaining. i say that because i can't complain.

there is time left yet to do something. most of them involves making up for the screwing up. damn, you know, i had so much hope for all that warm, fuzzy, cuddly positive stuff. i was gonna make it happen. i was pumped up. and then. and then i deflate myself. that's what. does it even help letting this all out? all i wanted to do was write. and this comes out. i guess being creative isn't something i'd like to do too. there is a long to-do list which items are of equal top priority, which i keep crossing out everyday not for completing the task, but from not wanting to do. i feel crappy. this is crap writing.

it's a miserable job as sbp student, a miserable party, a miserable time. everything is a miserable gig with a miserable self. i agree.

my way of loosening up is different form yours. we define our own world. so you may give me the advice, but don't think that you're doing me a favor by dictating me your way of doing it.haha.

P/s: sekadar melepaskan tekanan as tomorrow will be such a hell.

pity nab

2009-06-11T18:26:00.000-07:00

thank the heavens there are still openings for me to run away when the noise gets too loud. yes, perhaps it is a fair observation to say that it is just the way somebody is playing his role, but i find it unjust if he fails to have some courtesy for how others are just playing their role too. i hate being in a conflict when i am by hierachy lower than the party i am having a friction with. you know why? because you cant fucking do anything but scream to yourself in a secluded area at dissatisfaction, frustration, and above all, anger. i cant open my big mouth and tell them off because then i would just look like an apprentice of the devil. not that you give me much credit for having opinion anyway, because all the while you are the only one who gets to speak your mind. i have to repress myself and although my troubles may be more significant than yours, they pale in comparison purely from your voicing out yours seemingly fishing for pity.but i am telling you, if that day should come when your noise exceeds the threshold whereby i am able to compose myself and escape first before i let loose all that screaming, i may just let you witness my head exploding and i wouldnt mind much for whatever else at that moment other than releasing an aching heaviness building up inside my thorax and skull. and an outsider might just say you asked for it.

so,what can usay?
pity nab??

lalalia nab baikla!

2009-06-11T05:47:00.000-07:00

my reply comment that i ve wrote to
ms aira,16,ssp malay debater.

haihhh. no need to call me kakak2. u can just treat me as ur fren then. thx btw foe ezzah's acc. ssp ader record any video of urs tak? gimme some bley? add me at my ym & i can make u love bahas lotsa more.
ini kata-kata yang seluruh hidupnye di her sec scul diabadikan untuk bahas & bahas. sayang sungguh i cant make everybody proud of that. cheiss. btw, i thk u hv potential n credibility of good debater. just put some efforts n commitments ther & u ll feel the sweet taste of bitter hardwork. do believe in me. sorry if u dont feel comfort but i prefer to text in eng..

dewa tak nab nehh?
haha.dah la kalah kat second round,
boley plak wat teror kat budak yang da sampai semi finale pun.
chaet! dear aira..
im not emphasizing masef to you but believe me
that altho we didnt hv the rezeki to perform at the final,
we actually have the great faith inside,
which is invisible to anybody.
but the truth is, no matter how or who the person is,
as long as she wanna share some great things wif you,
its really & honour if you can just accept it.

dear aira,
of all juniors in recent HK, i tot ther was no others whu can perform similar lik you.
the uniqueness n talent of you astounded me much.
stay,be you, & just do the improvement.

salahguna salahguna

2009-06-11T05:30:00.000-07:00

folio add maths yang ngongg!
chaett!

mengikut jadua
l(yang dibuat serta-merta beberapa saat tadik),
nab suppose to do her assignment on additional mathematics folio NOW!
apa? ulang,ulang..
NOW???

cerdiknye ko nab..(AMINNN)bley lagik ko maen2 blog..aiseh.
dah la..malas nak flirt kat cne, pegi wat folio lahhhhh! haha
tata

bodoh ko nab.

2009-06-11T03:03:00.000-07:00

What I am to you is not real
What I am to you, you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
and I'll ask for the sea.

to whom it may concern.. do forgive me on what ive said to you. hell,it my regression.if only i have the power to undo things.

sorry.

tengs ay-lahhh.

2009-06-11T02:33:00.000-07:00

15 tags on what i ve learnt this 2009.

1. it is perfectly okay to be a superfreak/dork/nerd/geek/skema/hidup dalam dunia sendiri.

2. i should never depend on anyone else but myself. even the bestest of friends can be aliens in times of extreme need. kan solie?

3. i am a slave to technology; i can not lived just fine for one hour without texting anyone, thanks to a completely samsung omnia.

4. losing weight is in fact, easy peasy. keyword : extreme discipline plus herculean willpower.

5. the perfect guy does exists. but he's also terribly imperfect in many ways. sigh, the irony. because that just makes him all the more desirable to my silly stubborn self. cue knock on head for obvious stupidity and lack of reasonable judgement.ini semua orang setuju..

6. running away from home repeatedly does not make me feel any less miserable with regards to the condition at home, nor does it proof any valid point. lagi nampak macam immature brat adalah.

7. men truly do have only one thing on their minds. which is totally fine, we women kinda do as well.

8. at the end of the day, i still can never be part of an all-girls group of friends. all the emphasis on the nitpickiest things, the catty competition, the drama. argh. ingat aku ni spice girls material ke apa?

9. emotional attachment is not an impossible thing for me to achieve. and now i know it's totally not fun either. only terribly emotionally-draining (go figure) and motherfuckingly frustrating.

10. prozac, valiums and xanax, baby. anxiety and insomnia are such full-blown bitches.

11. growing my hair as long as alanis morissette's or *shudder* janis joplin's, can be pretty. if i am actually aiming to look like a rock kangkang groupie sesat in sainal. or a kurus version of ozzy osbourne.

12. i have such supergreat wonderful exes. it seems that they're always the people i can run to, regardless of whether they can be here for me in the physical sense. i love each and every one of them.esp my dear shuq-qie (:

13. i should not, repeat, should not, spend most of my allowance on reload cards. it apparently doesn't give that much personal satisfaction, only encourage unreasonable activities.

14. i should really stop being so uptight when it comes to those who aren't in my close circle of friends. people might be more friendly if i am to be more forgiving about the things other people do that annoy me.

15. i am very adept in the art of torturing myself.

nab super-sayang!

2009-06-11T02:09:00.000-07:00

"Its not about being what everyone else
want to be,
its about being yourself
and finding someone
who loves every bit of it"

today, I really found out this quotes damn true.
bayangkan.. dengan setiap satu daripada perangai nab adalah

buruk,
menjengkelkan,
menyusahkan,
membuatkan orang benci
dan terlalu keanak-anakan..

nab masih lagi mau menjadi dirinya. dan cuba teka?

ada orang yang sayangkan nab sebab tu!
hell cool (^.^)

perwira anti-durian yang demam.

2009-06-11T00:14:00.000-07:00

dess.

alkisah, nab baru okey from demam. pastinya bukan chikungunya or influenza H1N1.
punca demam aku adalah benda paling bodoh yang nab takut dalam hidup ne.

apakah itu : menjejak kaki di rumah orang. CHAET!

tu la umi.. pegi lagi tido rumah mak usu. aiyo..saat nab menjejakkan kakinye di ambal rumah banglo 3 tingkat milik pokcik bakoie(kelantanese nehh), ok jer..nab telah berselawat dengan banyaknye. masuk rumah,salam2..(da ketar2 da lutut nabb) then nab pun pegi duduk diam2 kat living room di tingkat 2. (serious diam)..nab text2 org..cooling downn..ok jer.

malam pun tibe. solat. caj phone & bersua lahh nab dgn orang ramai di dapur.

ALAMAK!!!!
perghhhhh. sekali ada pulut durian da... chaet! hancur hati nab. berderai-derai rasanya bulu-bulu hidung nab nehh dek bau yang ala-ala tuhh! memang tekanan habes ar. then..kezen2 (2 3 orang budak separa mumaiyiz) pun jemput2 nab makan menda alah tuh.

hah!mati idup balik pun nab tak akan makan dehh!

jadi peeps : itulah punca yang telah menyebabkan nab demam(2 hari 2 malam), tidak lalu makan,pening2 kepala.. sebab utama,kena tido,makan,minum di rumah pokcik nab di kelantan nun..sebab kedua,terlampau terkejut dek hidangan makan malam pada malam itu.

so,apa reaksi umi?

nab : tu la umi..kan elok kalau pegi je terus check-in kat renaissance..yang pegi tido situ dulu sape suruh..(dengan tune suara sorg yang demam & bersweater kat seat blakang kete)

umi : kamu larr anak paling susah nak bagi besar..(ayat klise umi nab)

hah? lagi???

desshita.

2009-06-10T23:47:00.000-07:00

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me

And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make itI just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me cause we lost it all'
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think About the pain
I feel inside Did you know you used to be my hero
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

perhhh. nab penat. ):

SAINA vs Sains Macheyy

2009-06-05T07:23:00.000-07:00

aku masihh lagi di posisi sama.

KETIGA.

MAT REMPIT WAJAR DIKENAKAN TINDAKAN TEGAS.-kerajaan.

alkisahhhnye.
kami konfident jugaklar dengan tajuk ne. haha. tak sangka betul masin mulut ayie. as kitowg dapat bye, sempat jugaklarr sembang2 pasal expected usul. and dier lak asek sebut mat rempit. mat rempit. haha.

apa yang menariknya, usul ne mengingatkan kami inter-u debate yang penah kami enjoy tengok sesama ( sebab asal tgk video je, kami wat cm tgk film! ) hah hah. (as we do believe that bahas is so exciting, ngiaaa). tajuk inter-u debate tu adela "KEKERASAN WAJAR DIBALAS KEKERASAN".

ade hubungkait kan? heh heh heh.

sejam dalam quarantin tu memang fun habes! plus, kami dapek usher yang sporting n rela berkorban! (dalam erti kata sebenar). :)

Tengs so mushie2 FAZLINA. (ceni kot spelling nye!)LOL.
"ko memang sporting habes, kiyut n susahh ar kitowg nak lupa"

hehe.
next, masukla dalam BBO8. (bilik bahas 08).
gementar jugak. aleh2 oppo kitowang tu mmg muka yakin tahap gaban ahhh! wah ha ha.
first speker laki, followed by pempuans. machang-ster punya faces! kuang3

i rase dat we hd performed very well n the most important is that we hd enjoyed the match damn much. lupe plak nak cakap dat mat rempit nehh da sampai tahap di label samseng jalanan. aduh. usul ni tak bias. but foe me, myb sebab konsep pembangkang tak kukuh & tak dibawa dengan jelas. sedikit memberi ruang untuk aku hentam. ( ni kerja stereotype 3rd speker). ngeeehh.

so?
USUL DITERIMA. alhamdulillahhh.. (:

rentetan drpdn kemenangan sulung ne, saina meneruskan pencaknya untuk kembali beraksi hebat. tempoh dua tahun kami berehat dari pentas final dirasakan sudah sampai ke penghujungnya. semangat para pembahas saina terus dibakar tanpa henti oleh semua pihak dek kemenangan sulung ini.

kami?
seperti diinject dengan rubella barang setengah liter. serious.
we were to eager to make the "everyone's dreams come true".

ikuti episod selanjutnya. (:

ssp,cyber. (:

2009-06-03T19:51:00.000-07:00

baw balik HK.

HARI KECEMERLANGAN SBP di Sekolah Seri Puteri, cyber.

untuk posting pertama nehhh, akan aku ceritakan terlebih dahulu the overall view.

frankly speking, foe me, this hk mmg layak d-categoried as "the concourse of intelegentcia".

yup, tu ape yg i rase wehhh.

btw, congratulations to all ssp-ians as korg suma mmg superb, friendly habes, profesional, n boley maintain ur pure typical 'bdak sbp's treats'. haha. aku salute korg!
kitowg disambut oleh tengku nabila. mmg nampak nerd.. tapi tu lahh sebenarnye muka2 prefects kat sbp ne.. aku je tak mcm tuh.. haha..
our high expectations met the target. yeahh, nice intro.

tak lame pas tuhh,,

JUA !!!
ne la jeritan pertama aku kat ssp nun.

shakirah najua. ne kawan aku. ssp. one of my bestiest.
hyper-kelakar-santekkk-fun to get along wif.
sekampung & se-birthdayy. :) kawan sampai mati wehhhh.
p/s : aku takkan lupe k0 pggl cikgu talib (our pk koko) pakcik! haha..
n tengs for the wholenite that we spent wisely tu ek? haha..

ssp?
senarionye adalahh hostel yang ok-ok.
facilities yang almost perfect.
cyber kiosk tuhh mmg best btw.
cantik bebudaknye.nampak pandai cm aku.
ade court lawnbowl. (yg membuatkan tchr lidya excited. hah hah)
cantik viewnyer. (macam saina gak ahhh) aku gelak tipu.
seia-sekata. (tergamam gak arr aku bile dorg cheer the scuds reramai) haihhhhh

ermmmm,
& thx a lot for giving us an air-conditioned quarantine room. ahaks.
(aku nehhh lembut ati sket if temperature rendahh!)

btw,, warung2 yang tersedia tuhh betul2 dahh makan duet aku kaw2. (korg tak bley imagine jumlahh nye) i regret jugakklahh. haha..
kat situ gakk, i met azalia - ssp's captain.
i tak tegur die pun, malas. but myb she noticed me. sowe babe, aku betul2 da set otak aku nehhh for my major trust- bahas. neway, congrats to ur team as u tingtong to finals. it worth u n ur team myb. (: all the best then.

n yeahh, i hv the chance to meet the head girl. (yg terus jen aku nonong2 report pasal jua yang selambabadak je pggl pk koko kitowg pakcik!) haha.
nice n full potential. die tak mcam rose amira (former headgirl). budak2 ssp mesti tawu kenapa aku ckp mcm ne. kan?? atm, aku terus rs cm aku shake hand dgn pekerja sektor awam. serious matured terokk sedari headgirl itu. i wish u cud do better than rose had done b4. gud luck as i cn c tht u hv sometg beneath ur physical treats whc i cant put it into words yet. hey, u knoe urself better rite? put them all into ur actions please.

and i think that i shall show some gratitudes ere to evrybody that had incharged esp the hi-com n the loyals prefects on duty, orion 0509, hermanas 0610, food-servers,usherss, n yeahh, the great teachers, pakcikmakcik kat warung2.. n all parties that not been mentioned above.

you are very much appreciated.

tu je. (:

no exam fever.

2009-05-15T06:48:00.000-07:00

aku penat.

wehhh, tao ak, senin neih wil b my mid year xm. gilepe.

i will nor expect nething from the papers, but at least, im hoping for no red-ink. hah hah.
gipun, lately nehh, aku sibuk gilerrr ngn preparation ari guru suma.. penat giler.. i lost my focus somtyme. but its ok cely. it just me dat cant be the well manager of the tyme. haha.

btw, if my sista are reading dis, "bile kamu nak balik skolahhh ha?''

tata. semuga saya berjaya. (:

bye bye

2009-04-26T20:41:00.000-07:00

:: thousand dreams, one team ::

i am murdered.

2009-04-26T20:00:00.000-07:00

the cry on my face as u know that i need you.

salam semua. just to tell everybody that 'saya telah dipecat'
i was fired, was humiliated, was unappreciated, was died.

ainnabila is no longer ainnabila. she had lost her passionate, her heart and her evrything.

"saya tidak akan meletakkan sesiapa di tempat saya untuk menjadikan dia berfikiran seperti saya,enough if u can knoe how was the feel. "

alkisah pada malam lara itu:
we were gathered at d scul hall foe the meeting.. nobody knows what will happen until the word 'tarnsformation' ultered by our madam azizah.. Me? atm, i feel like satisfied on everytg that she babbled us as all them are really2 true. yah, i admitted that all.
suddenly, evrytg turns cattled.
'kita mesti tukar ainnabila' said my madam.

atm back, i feel like fainted, the tears have no end, sebak mungkin. no words ultered from me, it just that my heart was not like a heart anymore, it was more to a caburatorrrr...
it beats like it was the last hour of beating.

seperti tiada esok.

my bestfriend was cooling me down as everybody was injected with unconditionally emotion.
terkejut amat mungkin.

i dont really know how they felt, but me atm, saya rasa seperti
'this is my end of world..'

i cant recall what had actually happened in the hall when the reposition took place. nobody was willingly to replace me. i am sure bout that, but the replacement had happened, and there was no turning back.

then ..
saya pergi ke bilik kaunseling, purposing on to have some words from mrs caunselor.. i ve cried all time along there, upsetly, i felf lost, i felt like

THIS STRONG AINNABILA HAVE LOST HER STRENGHT..

THIS GOOD AINNABILA HAVE LOST HER COMPLEXION,

HER GUIDER,

HER ENZYME,

and..

HER LIFE..

Dear my all ; VISIONERA..

tiada bintang,

dapat menerangkan

hati yang telah dicelah

bagaiku lumpuh tak mampu berdiri..

terima kasih untuk semua yang anda berikan pada saya, i just cant repay evrything.. terlalu banyak yang saya belajar dari visionera,, harga hidup yang tak dapat dibayar,,life's experience that i can buy nowhere,,

siapa saya hari ini adalah apa yang saya belajar dari visionera semalam.

i developed myself from the inspiration of visionera.

visionera had tought me how life really is.

it's about to learn, improve, and considering..

human is not perfect, that's why we need to match ourselves.

friendship is the answer.

love conquers almost everything.

saya menjadi manusia bersama anda..

my deepest gratitude for my visionera..

u are my reminiscense life..

my visionera is my irreplaceable.
they are my evryting.

goodbye my visionera.

happy farewell.

sorry that i am no longer ainnabila.

tales of love.

2009-04-05T22:40:00.000-07:00

heyya all.

What you're gonna do when she turns around
And says you broke another heart that was broken down?

friends foe life,

017402HHHH (bukan number sebenar)

2009-03-20T07:45:00.000-07:00

39.45s

wowww.

the longest conversation i ever had wif my beloved sista. huuhh!
naseb ko la adekk.. kenapa ko ta livin same home sweet home ngn aku. hah hah. me memang gile cronic benci phone calls neiyh. tapi memandangkan, it was a really long tyme ago since i last talk to her, so i forced myself too. i thinks, it was my first call this month, nevertheless, this year.

adek : aik,bukan ta suka fon ka?

aku : haizzzzz, aku fon ne sebab ingatkan ko la! (which i hv not figured it out)

tu la. malas sangat text me. i tote da balik sekolah dahh my sis tu. public fon kat sekola die kan semua ortodox sket. (so,aku tak hairanla dia tak text aku) wahh hah hah. aku tak sangka plak yang aku reti phone conversation ne. seingat aku, if a have to talk in phone before, habis sangat bunyi yang keluar macam 'uh','k','ye kot',tah'.. 'maybe'.. yang paling panjang pun waalaikumsalam. (sebab kalo nenek aku yang kol, dia mesti bagi salam!) lol. rindunye kat nenek.
*ada unsur hiperbola sedikit.

haha. lame jugak bonda(the name i call my nenek) tak call aku. which was the call, satu-satunya yang i tak boleh reject. mau mati kene lecture kalau aku reject call die. wah ha ha. bonda..bonda...

ouh, back to the story.

credit? haha, seyes wehhh, aku tak pernah berkira pasal credit fon ne. macam pakai family line plak. haha. takdela.. tapi im not kinda people yang sep pasal topap ne. normally, i ll token at least rm30 once. ye la, satu mesej pun da 7 cent now.. plus, bonda selalu masukkan money.(which i converted into top up card). haha.

i think it was a nice and loveable sister's talk between us. haha. serious nehhhh.
dear sis, thanks for 39.45s that u have spent foe me just now.(baik gilerr aku)haha.

"nab said : aku tetap tak akan suka phone calls"
sorry!

terjerit ketawa.

2009-03-20T05:42:00.000-07:00

(")'""(") ZzZzZ
( - _ - ) dont be
(,,)(")(") bored!!
(")'""(") ????
( = . =) dont be
(,,)(")(") gon..
(")'""(") #$%@
( T : T) dont be
(,,)(")(") sad!!
(")'""(") ****
( ' ; ' ) must be
(,,)(")(") CUTE!!
(")'""(") ^^^^
( ^ ; ^ ) and must be
(,,)(")(") HAPPY!!

hah hah. a lil cute story. i never retarded of being thankful and appreciate other people as well tapi, kalo cengginilahh wish nye. :

aku gelakkk guling2 woi. haha

foe the related person, sorry yay,i dont intends to insult u dear, but please ! i m not that kinda cutie people yang akan 'Oh, how sweet!' bila dapat benda2 camni. lalala.

bt, its ohkayyyy. I love you to.

conversative conversation.

2009-03-20T05:29:00.001-07:00

tadi, sorg x-student sekola aku ttba cntc aku balik. wahh ha. (rmi org syg aku taw!) huh.
kat bawah ne aku ceritakan seraba sedikit petikan story itu ye.

senior tersebut:
heyya my dearest lil sis nabila...
huhu...
skolah@saina cmna???
still oki n steady???
ttba jaa kak bee tingat nk tnya...
wuuuwuuwu..
skrg skol oliday kan??

aku menyebut:
hayy kak b!

huh. idup? fine lar.. btw, caya tak nabila mt? haha. tak percaya pun kena percaya la. tapi sumpah! tak giat pun. (muka seyes ne) wah haha. skola? fine2 je. ta kurang, lebih banyak! huhu. saina cantek dah sekarang. kakaka. banyak landscape bawu. almaklom dapat ongkos from d highway project. huh. visit us la. ah! aritu jumpa kak malia kat pusat dakwah. seyes ta kenai dia dah. changed abes. (: huh. kak b pont kalo jumpakk tah ta kenai dah! haha.

amcam skrg? bila nikah? ihikhik. ;-P

begitulahhh kisahnye pertemuan kembali aku ngn senior yg sygkan aku nehhh. (kitowg sama2 buat jahat dulu!) haks!

demikian berakhir.

mind it.

2009-03-20T00:27:00.000-07:00

“There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.

Chuck Klosterman, in Killing Yourself To Live : 85% Of A True Story.

this is what i feel right now. who cares ryte? huh.

i wish i can say fuck you. fuck you, for you deserve every ounce of damnation that phrase carries. but how can i? not when i am refusing to let go. not the memories, not the feelings. they're all worth it. even the heartbreak that came with it. you were the one thing in my life that felt true; even though reality has proven to be the direct opposite. screw my delusional self.i refuse.

and i am still very much a heartbroken wreck.

chaet! i fuck u. A****. hell is foe u.

ko ingat ko super?

2009-03-20T00:14:00.000-07:00

"I have scars on my hands from touching certain people"

J.D. Salinger.

serious weyyyy.

the entry above is fine to dedicated kepada manusia yang terasa. huh.

what actually happen?

2009-03-19T07:44:00.000-07:00

what i can never forget was the soundtrack to the whole scene; there were always some the doors playing, the occasional bursts of mars volta, more often than not the kooks, something john mayer, ben harper or jack johnson. you would always get jealous when i insist on playing some stereophonics or the libertines or verve; you've always loathed my obsession towards kelly jones and pete doherty and richard ashcroft. we would always sing our hearts out to led zep and oasis and the cure; classics, those. or laugh at each other when we imitate architecture in helsinki or worse, CSS. we would always move our shoulders in the most retarded way upon some the go! team or shitdisco playing. you've always said i can do a mean impersonation of the raveonettes' sharin foo; with my stoic face and monotonic voice. what was funny was the fact that you adore having me sing some rilo kiley, but not anything by jenny lewis and the watson twins. like, hello? they're still jenny lewis' tunes, you egg. i love that we can sing along to jesus and mary chain and primal scream, word by word. i adore how you would immediately pop the bloc party cds into the player when it rains, because you know i love the quiet energy of their tunes. or probably some kings of convenience and the postal service, some iron and wine and m83; those were our music for rainy, mellow days. all the arguments of who's more eccentric between bjork and beck, jamiroquai and moby, regina spektor and imogen heap. or who has better pop; robyn or annie. or who's cooler between karen o and emily haines, because we can't seem to agree on whose music we love more, between metric and yeah yeah yeahs. how you say you love listening to me sing along to lykke li or pj harvey, because i sound exactly like those two. how you hate it when i put on some wolfmother, because you say they're just a poor imitation of ac/dc. i would always fuss when you do that nick cave voice of yours, it was so darn irritating! but i love listening to you singing along to the beach boys and the new york dolls; those were definitely your adorable moments. and when we were so stoned, it was always portishead. beth gibbons is totally the shit. or sigur ros, because heck, they're friggin sigur ros. you would always complain when i put on some trespassers william or mew or mogwai or explosions in the sky or slowdive or cocteau twins; you were always going, iqa, do you really want me to fall asleep while driving? and so i would always revert to the clash or joy division or pulp, because i know that would most certainly wake you up. i would get so amazed that you know the words to bikini kill and le tigre and bratmobile, i would never imagine someone like you to be so riot grrl. and radiohead. damn. you just don't like them, do you? you would never pass out on the chance to thrash talk thom yorke. and you were always going on and on about how i'm never gonna be like alanis morissette. i know that already, you pig. i'm not a wannabe, least of all.

got me ryte? thanks a lot.

2009-03-18T19:34:00.000-07:00

yahhhhhhhhhhhh!

hi,selamat pagi peeps!
its not soooo early in da morning. but,ohkayy lar foe me yg jarang bangun pagi nehh. haha. btw, i baw lepas edited on pisc. sajer isi leasure tyme. (:

mishhh ya ketat2!

2009-03-18T09:32:00.000-07:00

.alya.mira.shat.mon2.wanie.tirah.
dyedarling.soliey.ernie.am.makdoot.
honeyzatie.ummieaida.sofeya.atikahsaffi.fas.
pina..waniZ.mirazaker.izzati.shu.
dodocomel.diana.enott.azreen.yana.
apap.emon.tipah.perk.wan.syazana.
mimi.ayu.reena.bas.eara.paah.
amytummy.hassayang.ana.zayani.
miza.anis.hanz.tiqahbakhir.anith.
tikahrodzri.wani.zatbesi.shiera.
eliza.tasya.syaza.eika.yatt.malin.
ati.farah.thesoftwawa.dayah.umishafiqah.
saharah.pae.syara.pikah.wanifendi.liyana.
hasfifa.pinat.diyana.khayatun.
fatin.kyong.lina.ku.nadia.eilliya.

haisyyyyyyyy! rindu betul!

i will tell u the truth : this is my marriage.
so,what??!

takdelahhh..tapi macam tu lar lebih kurang. saia da banyak berubah afta married to visionera. betul.

kalaula saia tidak mengenali mereka.. i will not stand as siapa yang u all lihat saia hari ini.

esp in leadershiplarrr...
tanggungjawab paling besar yang i uphold it the batch. serious. foe me lahh. i learned a lot thing about life from this position.

"jika seseorang pemimpin itu, memimpin tanpa pengikut, dia ibarat keluar bersiar-siar"
setuju?

so.. sepanjang aku dengan visionera.. aku bukannya nak guna kuasa aku sangat.. tapi lebih kepada belajar daripada kuasa yang aku ada..
paling ketara bila newcomers masuk. freshie. bagi aku.. dorg ne mcm zero jugak la pasal hostel. so,at the moment.. aku bukan bertindak sebagai ketua foe them, but more to as a new friend.. but the truth is.. aku bukannya manusia yang friendly pun! betul. my close friends pun cakap they was impressed upon my friendly-ness! hahah! tapi..fortunately la.. if not, i wud remains as ainnabila b4. yang ta pernah pedulik orang laen. cukuplah sekadar berkawan dengan tujuh orang manusia,dan aku tetap aku yang snobbish! hahaha..

alhamdulillah..semuanya ada hikmah!

lagi? huh.. aku belajar that the followers is acely the friends!
bukan! sebaliknya.
the friends is acely the follower.
absolutely.

kita mesti be friends first before the friends itself layak dipanggil follower.
aaaaa... 2 am alredy. waktu study!

`to be continued.. nite all!

Salam sayang untuk kekecewaan. ;-(

2009-03-18T07:57:00.000-07:00

helo : hai

assalamualaikum.

lama tak menjerit kat cine. actually,sangat sibuk lately.
study.study.study.

btw, aku bawu je kalah hk north zone. bahas.

SANGATTTTTTTTTTT SEDIHHHH!

kitowang kalah dengan SM Sultan Abdul Halim. Kekalahan yang jelas. mungkin sebab aku jue. aku sendiri pun tak berapa paham dengan usul : Ciptaan bahan api berasaskan tumbuh-tumbuhan membawa kesejahteraan kepada manusia.

huh!

so, as a menteri ketiga yang merapu-dana..aku tak nafikan yang aku dah gagal dengan sempurna.

hahaha.. ):

sedihla. sediiiiiiih!

dear sainareans;
gagap sekali tak bermakna gagal selamanya. i ve learn a lot from my mistakes. and the team alsa. we are all responsible foe that. saia da tiada airmata untuk ditangiskan buat kekecewaan yang kita kungsi bersama. ewahhhhhh!

saia akan menebusnya! percayalahh. wishh me all the best. c ya~

family tetap family juaa!

2009-02-20T03:06:00.000-08:00

aku dah berbaik dengan adek aku.. penat ahhh gaduhh..

gipun, air dicincang tak akan putus...kn?kn? marah and kecil hati tu memang larr ade.. tapi aku dah tak sampai hati tengok adek aku tu.. pandang muka pun dah tak berani..hahaha..

aku pun dah sampai lupa apa yang aku marahkan sangat. biasala aku, ego as high as KLCC. huahua.. tapi takpelahh.. everything happen for a very good reason.. so, hope so that kitowang akan baik macam dulu, or even, lebih baik.

so, sekarang ne.. aku kenala take care of my sis.. sabrina,fatin.. and arina too!
i do love them equally. so, may they love me as much as that too. bdw, tapi sabrina gunting tali sneakers aku. takpelahhh.. aku pun takde mood nak marah or jerit2 kat die hari ni. aku tawu die yang buat, as nobody younger than me in this home sweet home. takkanla aku bley sasau tetengah malam and pegi gunting tali kasut sendiri kan? kan?kan?

tapi kan... aku sendiri kadang-kadang rasa yang adik2 aku, tak sayang sangat kat aku. entahla.. tapi for me, love must be expressed. tahla diorang.. but so far.. i have never feel very much appreciated.. or even being cared. i cant count because there were none.

tapi tak kisahhla.. adik tetap adik.. kita tak boleh nak harapkan apa yang orang boley bagi kat kite, tapi sebaliknya. aku nehh payah nak sayang orang, tapi if dahh sayang tue, sampai bila2 lar aku sayang..

so,if they are reading,
"a sister is sumone who knows all about you, but love you anyway"

sabrina, fatin, and arina : i love you all tight2 jua! (",)

live for nothing or die for something (:

2009-02-20T02:34:00.000-08:00

hai semua..

arini ari jumaat. bersamaan pulang bermalam pertama aku taun neehh.

banyak benda gila yang jadi kat sekolahh.. yang happy dan yang tak happy.
yang happy?

ermm.. angsana menang KOT!!
hahaha.. buat pertama kali setelahhh bertahuntahun, akhirnya rumah sukan aku, rumah angsana menang gak tyme sport day dua ari lepas. huhuhuhu.. aku plak just dapat sumbangkan dua medal je. satu gold and satu silver. (acara adalah sulit!)
angsana gak menang kawad kaki wehhh! hahaha.. aku plak jadi bestgirl. atau penanda je dalam bahasa mudahhnya.. segak gilerr kitowang pakai baju pendekar melayu! hitam dan emas! indahhnya kenangann.. tengkolok kuning yang kitowang pakai tu was lik heating the spirit to a level of infinity! hahaha.. semangat gilerr! tak sangka kitowang bley menang.. tapi dah tertakdir.. gipun, mmg we nailed it! siang malam practice.. and thanks arr kat our commander : pak din. at least,, die commander paling cool. hahaha.. asyik wat tepuk beruang je.. kawad selangkah, tepuk, selangkah,tepuk lagi.. aduhh lae...

thanks gak kat cikgu2 sports house saye .
esp tece lidyawani.. sporting habis! siap sanggup bersusah payah lagii.. we are very glad upon your willingness.. cikgu ne gak cikgu faveret daku. hahaha.
cely, every english tece is my fav tece! huhuhu

rather than that, aku sebenarnya lebih terharu dengan commitmen n kerjasama daripada the people.. bayangkan semua boys in the house was vry comited, sporting, cool, n funny! to mentioned all is so many to me, but some of them are zul, izat, lukman, syazwan,and anas..
ketua badri, zul jama pun turun padang! haha.,

tabik spring gilerr aku kat kapten rumah : saudara kanggaroo! hahaha.. takdelahh.. hafiz syazali! seap dapat olahragawan lagi! (: cayalahhh!

tahniah gak 4 my sis : saadiah.
dpt jugakk ko jadi olahragawati.. tak sia2 la kat dlm dorm asek berlari, berskiping, berjoging, berlompat dan bertidur...... C-:

dear ANGSANA-ians,
"what we have yesterday is not exactly what we still have tomorrow"

kemenangan semalam adalah kenangan indahh semalam. kenangan itu layak dikenang hari ini,tapi hari ini, tak semestinya kita masih lagi menang. apa yang kita lakukan hari ini pula, mungkin menentukan kita akan menang lagi esok. (:

gambate!

moments of cherishh.

2009-02-14T19:16:00.000-08:00

lawatan ke putrajaya las yer.

it was a summit of endless nostalgia. was very fun and exciting. we were much more closer because of the trip.

PRS is my second passion after visionera.

so i love every each of them very much.

i hope that our sweet bonds will last forever.

schweet tak?

hahahaha

we are sisters forever!

2009-02-14T19:07:00.000-08:00

hye!

kenal tak sape ngn aku kat tepi ne?

she is my sista.

fatin atiqah.

15.

this pic was just sum gratitude to her for keep being so patient towards me.

nice!

"Sisterhood means if you happen to be in Burma and I happen to be in San Diego and I'm married to someone who is very jealous and you're married to somebody who is very possessive, if you call me in the middle of the night, I have to come"

begitulahh lebih kurang. haha..

Siapa aku dihatimu?

2009-02-14T18:55:00.000-08:00

hohoha. so far, dah hampir sebulan kau menjalankan tanggunggjawab sebagai MT. the high council tiled me enuf2! haha. apa yang aku rasa adalah keseimbangan. betul lar susahh nak pimpin orang. , but then, those whu never try, will never nail it. jadinya, kau tetap akan cuba apa ynag termampu. tapi. as day goes by, i feel much more better. bolehhla sesuaikan diri. apa yang penting?

of cos the bonding.

so far.. i do loves evryone. i do hope they loves me too! ahakSS (:

yang menariknya.. aku sangat terharu, gembira, grateful n beberapa perasaan lain when theygave me a big round of applause evertime i speech out.

maybe thers sumthing good there. i feel very much appreciated when they did so. the way tey showed their gratitude to me was vry meaningful and inspiring.

and i have always promised to myself that;

I WILL ALWAYS IMPROVING MYSELF FOR THEM.

BYE!

mari2 pik ces bawu! (:

2009-02-14T18:50:00.000-08:00

see what? me wif my debab. haha. ne time kitowang g putrajaya las yer. of prs trip.

12gy+ f (360)-23xy = 18 !

2008-11-24T03:30:00.000-08:00

terkenangkan additional mathematics!

haha.
to story all..

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my final exam adm3 paper. nice huh?
hahaha.
aku tak pernah sangka..dalam kehidupan aku yang serba indah ne..
aku tetibe dicacatkan dengan kegagalan dalam adm3. begitu sedih.
yela..setahun aku belajar..tetibe dpt 18 je! memang sial.

memang salah aku :
pertama.aku tak pernah buat latihan. tak pernah.
kedua. aku tak pernah buat homework sendiri.
ketiga. aku peningkan diri waktu jawab.

tapi aku tahu dan faham sebenarnya!
hahaha.
tapi tak mengapa.
i do believe ada rainbow after hujan.kn?kn?

yes.i do feel sad n dissapointed,bt,life must go on.
let bygone be bygone.

ku percayai diriku. :)

jalan-jalan ke batu kawan. :)

2008-11-24T03:20:00.000-08:00

jomheboh. ahaha.

kemarin,aku pegi jomheboh. sebenarnye..lebih baik aku bunuh diri.haha. frankly speakin, aku sangat tidak suka pergi ke tempat2,venue2,lokasi2,kejadian2 dimana orang melayu suke pergi. seperti pasar tani, expo2 peladang,fun fair dan seperti jom heboh! haha. tapi..disebabkan keterpaksaan dan ketakutan berada di rumah keseorangan, i have to! ne semua cos of sabrina!
terhegeh-hegeh sangat nak jumpe zul yahya. huh. menyampah. reached there, sabrina pn tersenyum lebar. simbol kemenangannye terhadap aku dan jugak kejayaannye bertemu dengan idola kanak-kanaknya-pepaya! herghhhhhhhh.

nothing much there. juzt a zillions of malays yg mencari hiburan mungkin. aku sekadar ke booth dutch lady dan membeli susu kotak sebanyak rm60 dan sebatang mp4 samsung.rm496. tu je. banyak jugak selebriti kat sane. ade yang aku tak kenal pun ade. dorg je la kenal aku.. hahaha..

so,till we meet again. :)

menjadi skema

2008-11-24T03:02:00.000-08:00

hye. lame tak jumpe.

neway,life changes a lot.

bdw, wanna tell u bout my last visonera gathered.
on the day of our last nite in saina
(untuk 2008 je la tapinye)

i have speeched out my "ucapan akhir tahun"
haha. as the head of the batch, to speek out is rly somthin nice. :)

so,what happend?
I hv visionised them :
TO BE A TEAM OF SCHEME PEOPLE.
SERIOUSLUY.

and,amazingly,they hv accptd the vision.

kenapa?
aku betul2 inginkan satu pasukan yang sempurna untuk visionera.
kesempurnaan yang agung,
bererti,kami juga perlu menjadik sempurna for:
.the teachers.
.the students.

n juniors of cos.
so we must leads the school for nex yer.
: towards a brighter future.
(eh,pesal macam iklan tv?)

haha.
I rly curious bour rebuilding the team.
our team of remake.next yer..

reminiscence of excellence.
of glorious achievement.

visionerakusayang : akankubawakamu. :)

do not jeolous.

red letter day!

2008-10-31T20:38:00.000-07:00

hey all.

guess where?

alor setar. day out. outing.

hahaha.

so farr..

dis week will gonna be very busy..

yaya.

scul sux KOKO DAY.

PRS trip-only to KL.

but,better than nowhere.

everybody is jealous.

so,wish me a memorable trip to enjoy with.

c ya~

ainnabila is a terrifying horrible sister

2008-10-23T22:53:00.000-07:00

akukonflict.

yahhaaa.

apa perasaan korang,
bila orang yang korang sayang,
membuatkan korang berasa bodoh.
.bodoh.

ini la pe yang aku rasa skang.
evenly distributed

i never felt like ths before.
sorting my life sungguh-sungguh.
let me story to you :

"last week, i ve an argue with my junior.
let be of the story.
tapinya, ape yang aku gaduhkan ngn die adalah perihal
kekurangajaran.
mungkin bagi die,misunderstood,
but for me : totally rude.

ok then, then disebabkan benda tu, aku pont marah la.
and terhina juga.
benda ne melibatkan beberapa pihak .
mereka-meraka yang cuba nak menjernihkan keadaan.
.kononnya.
tapi aku tak setuju orang nak involve byk lam hal ne.
so, we met.
to settle up the matter.

alkisahnye,beliau telah membuatkan aku berasa lebih teruk.

sangat-sangat

how?

unexpectedly.just a minutes after we met.

they all gathered. she and the batch.

all girls.

to talk about how they have made me felf uncomfort.

she mentioned my name:

telling that,

"DIER(who was me) CAKAP KITA KURANG AJAR"

begitulah ala-ala maksudnye.

bayangkan, the time was around 12-1 am.

memang tak kene mase.

then, they made everybody that involved in the matters.

(a few matters like they fitnah me,they tuduh me,they tolong me,

and they kurang ajar with me or my friends) to stand up and do some

----->story telling.

purposing to make everybody in the perjumpaan understand.

ya-ya lah tu.

then,she that i told u before said many thing regarding :

'janganla kurang ajar'

macam tu la.

so, everybody guessed that :

i am the PUNCA of all.

ye la kan..

not many people can accept advises.

add that the teguran was like that.

so, they searched for my 'salah'

and accuse that

'why must we all respect the people like u : ainnabila?'

-u are such a horrible person-

-u are a prefect yang giat-

-u chose cute people to be prs-

-u force mainnah to tell u macam-macam-

-u selalu pegi surau lewat-

-u memang pulun-

-and bagai-bagai lagi-

ya-ya-ya

then the day after was the terrible of ever.

i can even see them all.

sangat tidak selesa.

that all because the perjumpaan was likely like:

ainnabila telah menegur the entire batch that the batch was rude to her.

but the one who be at the middle of the message sending was not the

batch leader, but someone who closed to ainnabila before and suddenly

she made something that made ainnabila felt that the she was rude.

the batch can not accept the messages as ainnabila is not perfect enough.

ainnabila is nobody to them.ainnabila was unelligible to receive their respect.

'siapa ainnabila untuk kita hormat?'

sesuatu yang macam tu.

so..

jadilah aku seperti seorang alien di asramaku sendiri.

seperti alien yang the batch usha-usha

----->bagai sangat tak puas hati.

kalau kamu jadi saya,

apa kamu nak buat???????

saya tidak pernah merasa apa yang budak itu buat adalah betul.

why?

because i never tell her that i want her to advice everbody.

first.

because she dont tell me that she gonna do that.

second.

because i dont know that my name wanna be mentioned.

third.

because i dont want people to judge me.

fourth.

and because :

who are they to highlight my name to make use of theirselves?

so,dear all.

i dont know what to do now.

for the meantime,

i still avoiding everybody in related with them.

i know that the girl intention was very good :

is that to make the batch better.

but she was wrong as i am the one who affected from this.

sangat terkesan.

so,if u are in my shoes?

what are u gonna do?"

email me :enabella_fannyart@yahoo.com

or do leaves me messages or comments at my friendster :

enabella budakberhinguss

or just reflect ur idea here.

saya sangat perlukan pertolongan.

aku dan hari lahirku.

2008-10-11T21:29:00.000-07:00

i just wanna express some gratitude specially to deary ARINA.

hey kamu.
walaupun u were late for my birthday,u still made me smile k.
haha.

shuqran jazeelan. :)

pensil itu akan ku gunakan untuk hitamkan jawapan exam nanti yea. hahaha

bye all!

kertas pereksa dan kata cinta sahabat.

2008-10-11T21:18:00.000-07:00

hey evrybody.

tuk pengetahuan korang sume,
im in exam fever.
yahaaa.
final year xm. tomorrow

i dont know why, but the frightened of xm papers doesnt effect me much. well, im telling u that i dont feel the eager so much. maybe cos of im so tired all days for the past months. so,final year isnt effect my ria and fun. haha.

neway, u knoe, my friends now,havin a conflict. of cinta dan persahabatan. hahaaa..

im not involved too much but yet, as part of them, i feel the same as them.all. yeahh.
being betrayed by our own bestfriend : was not very fun . :(

so, im hoping that all of this will cure soon. i dont want to let it bother my mind.
and bear that friendship isnt sweet.
as i believe it is the best in life.
and forever will. :)

to all my friends out there, be grateful of what u have either than expecting more.
so, its hard for u to hurt. :)

eidul fitr.

2008-10-08T20:16:00.000-07:00

hey all.
lame tak dengar dari me kann?.
so,neway,nothing biggie happened.
just all the joys keep sorting me over.

raye?
haha..aku raye kat negri jelapang padi ne jew.
yaya :)
rayer yang suam-suam kuku jew.
lalala

family yang kechik macam family aku,
resting neway.
korang?

*moodlesss~.thatswhy.

aku dan PRS

2008-09-16T00:04:00.000-07:00

perjumpaan prs lagikk.

huhu.
kalo korg suma nak taw..
dis week jea,,, dahh setiap hari wat pjumpaan.
meeting.
meeting.
meeting.

gilepe penat seyhhhh. :(

wish me the best for our-still plan TRIP. :)

Insya-Allah...

sayanora home sweet home. :(

2008-09-10T20:38:00.000-07:00

balik kampung. TIDAK BALIK.

wuarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

as if aku sampai pada sabtu lalu jam 6..atau sebelumnya :

SUDAH PASTI AKU DAPAT PULANG HARI INI!

Unfortunately. very very unfortunated.

ku sampai jam ENAM SUKU PETANG.

jadikk : kene tahan ar minggu ne.

wuarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

tak nak stay kat scul !

tak suke!

dear IQWAN gile.

2008-09-06T20:30:00.000-07:00

wouchhh.

dis is special for :

IQWAN the pak cik. :P

" salam remadhhan"

jangan ko sesekali TINGGAL PUASE YER!!!
kalo tak.. siap ko!

diva-licious. :P

2008-08-30T02:08:00.001-07:00

english dama 2008.

gilepe SUPERRRRB.

fuhhhh.
proud gile jd part of VISIONERA.
well-oganized english drama mendapat pujian bertalu-talu from pengetua.
dalam scul assembly plak tuh..

cewahhhhhh.

kembang arr tiqah drama.
:P
tiqah tu mastermind englishdrama neh.

huhu. thanx arr tiqah.

newayyy..
the result was :
1st : Visionera
2nd : nak tau sape?

dak2 fom 2.
haha.
gilepe.

dahla director dorg pompuan.
mcm me myself pernah lalui time f2 dulu.

congrats ea adekku :
K.A :)

TGK ARR SAPE YG AJAR KN K.A?

hahaha.

3rd plak : VISIONERA lagi.

both best actorr n actress were also from us.

mudah-mudahan,
cahaya terus menyinari kite. :)

pengawas baru. hell suck.

2008-08-30T02:02:00.000-07:00

minggu depan, baju sekolah ku dahh taklagi putih dan biru.
of cos not bcos of me yang kotorkan lahh.

tapi sebab scul's law yg menyebabkan aku menukar
warna bajuku into purple
once i accept to b a

p-r-e-f-e-c-t.

satu kesedihan.
dan beban jua.

tapi believe ME.
i do this all..

only fer my :

V I S I O N E R A :)

fatin atiqah :)

2008-08-30T01:57:00.000-07:00

mendapat seorang adik.

hahaha.

tak penah aku sangka.

disaat diri aku dahh besar macam ne.

i got a new sis.

fostersister ar tapinye. ;p

bukan dari ibu.haha.

neway. so interesting..
yahhaha.

the PRS BOND.
very-very strong.
:)

muge2 ko dpt jd adik yg baik.
seperti daku. :P

Kuala sepetang

2008-07-12T21:18:00.000-07:00

kita org g Kuala Sepetang r 2.

GEMPAK gile.

series.
hahaha.
akhirnya, penat lelah aku n the visionera high council mengaturkan lawatan fer all the batch member berbaloi.

worthable.
yup.

dari 6 pagi lagik,kami gile punye excited nak g melancong ha.

hahaha.
subuh semua imam pertama beb.

tak caya?
memang ar..
da gak girls "lap".
norm ar tuh.

hostelier cam kitaorg ne.. :P

sampai je kat sane.. rasa lapar suma hilang.. haha..
(tapi memang craving gila pon)

haha.
ape yang menariknye..bukan pokok bakau kat kuala sepatang tu.. tapi..
kengkawan n cikgu jugakla.. cikgu aida arr especially..

erm..meh nak cite pasal cikgu aida ne..

alkisahnye.. i sat in the same bus with her..
and memang happening gile ar.

me+ Soli+ dayah + cikgu aida
= gempak.

kitaorg tak tido....

cet.cet.cet.

hahhaa.

kang i ll cont.
bye.

aku sudah marah. grrrrrrrrr

2008-04-11T02:40:00.000-07:00

aku sangat fun bersama mereka : visionera 07 . dengar tu??

mahu dengar cerita.
standardly. the newcomers dalam batch akuh dah sampai semuanya. bermacam ragam seyhhh.
herghhh. haha. so, batch aku dah jadik 162 orang . setelah mengambil kira saiz badan. haha.

162 tu banyak weyyy. dulu kelas aku ada 13 orang je.

sekarang??

28. dua puluh lapan. GILA. kekadang aku rasa rimas jugak la. nak walking-walking pn da byk traffic light. huh~

dulu...
if aku n nyanyi... satu kelas bley dengar :)
now..

if aku jerit pon.. no one nk dengar!

hurghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

memang tak adil.

tapi tak pe.
i believe on 'a princess remain princess' :> lalalala

aku sebenarnya tidak lahhh membenci newcomers ne. : i welcomed u.

but, memandangkan ada seorang dua yang ********** , aku SANGAT MARAH.

bayangkan, (let name the *********** as J) si J ne, MEMANG MELAMPAU.

me myself : if aku benci kt orang tu .. ITs gonnab an everlasting kot. KOT.

so,the alkisah wit J, she had raised and touched my temp's high note. hahaha. pada mulanya, aku ok-ok je dgn J ne. tapi seakan-akannye dia cube memplay2 kn her leader. which is me. so, aku memang marah ar. marah gilepe.

hey all.
" when u re new in OUR place, please b respecful. Dont make me hate u or my agony of obligation will bury ur fun 'ere. "

yeah. dats the point.

my forgiveness take time. a very long time. i didnt spare an anger. but it ws just like
" aku masih ingat"

so, JANGAN CARI PASAL LAHHH.

memijak lantai rumah.

2008-03-06T22:01:00.000-08:00

sungguh.

rasa seronok + eager + gila balik rumah semalam. entah kenapa.

mungkin coz dah lama benar aku menetap di hostel. fuh.
berbagai cerita.

nanti aku cerita.

music sound me better. u r my forever friend.

2008-02-09T01:36:00.000-08:00

Of friends and music.

Ya.ya.

“nab”

“yes dear”

“do u love me”

“who r u”

“maisarah”

“I mean who r u to me?”
“ur,music..nab”

“so I absolutely love u”

Nothing much means to me. I just love music and friends. But music comes first. Music never hurt me. But friends.. maybe. Interfere me. Ya. Ya. Aku keyboardist yang setia. Tidak merdu tidak mengapa. Yang penting kami berkasihan. Sungguh. Aku tidaklah sungguh tahu memuzikkan alat itu.. tapi dia menyenangkan aku. Menerima aku seadanya.

Lagipun, itu sahaja yang aku ada. Tidak lebih, kurang mungkin.

Aku bukan peramah.tapi talkative. Kerana itu mungkin aku jarang making friend. But always make friends stay with me. Sungguh. Aku tidak bijak bersosial. Pembetulan. Kurang bijak.
Boleh, tapi mungkin tidak sempurna.

Tapi aku boleh bercakap. Ye lah. Maksud aku becakap secara total.

Beerti aku tidak akan berhenti selagi tidak disuruh.

Hahaha.

Imbas kembali.

Suatu malam sewaktu aku form one. Ya. Sewaktu masih berhingus seperti kawan kepada si shin chan dalam siri kisah hidup separa normalnya itu.

Black out.

Around 2 am. baru electric ada balik.

Sorang kawan aku bangun untuk iron baju. Baju yang baunya ala-ala. Almaklum akan kesibukan kanak-kanak form one di hostel. Bilik basuh pun dia tak tahu kat mana. Lainla aku. My mum fetch the laundry weekly atm. Opss,twice a week. Jujur.
Kembali kepada cerita.

Alkisah pula.katil dauble decker aku (saja nak tulis walaupun aku duduk bawah), betul-betul tepi board iron dalam dorm Mashitoh atau dikenali sebagai D02 tu. Bukan kelebihan.tapi malang.
Setiap peng-iron akan meninggalkan hangernya di katil aku. Selepas itu, hanger-hanger itu akan jadi latihan acara lontar peluru aku. Dalam loghat kedah yang pekat ianya berbunyi : “aku himbau keluaq”.
Tinggalkan kisah katil aku tu. Si kawan aku ni pulak jenis takut tingkap. Memandangkan board iron tu tepi tingkap, jadi tangan kasar dia pun merayap. Gerak aku. Aku bangun.

“awat we?”

“ teman aku nab.. aku nak iron..”

“esok la..”

“esok kang jam..”

“aku ngantukla..”

“kejap je.. I ll pay your breakfast “

Terus aku buka mata. Serentak itu jugalah bau yang ala-ala itu menusuk hidung aku.
Sabar. Ada himahnya.

Sementara menunggu rakan aku meng-iron uniform sekolahnya.. aku tutup hidung?

Tidak.tidak.tidak.

Tidak sampai hati sebenarnya.
Aku talk-talk dengan dia.

Well, aku cerita pasal macam mana raja boleh jadi raja. Serta perkaitannya.
Perkaitan-perkaitannya. Tidaklah panjang. Sedang-sedang.

Kawan aku yang boleh dikatakan agak tidak bernasib baik hening pagi itu menggagahkan diri mendengar cerita aku. Baju dah siap iron. Dia sedang berdiri di tepi katil aku mendengar penghabisan cerita. Walaupun tak ada sebenarnya.

Aku terus bercerita. Tak silap aku, nama ratu diana pun aku sebut. Apa kaitan aku tak pasti.
Sebab aku ingat kawan aku tu ada tanya. Diana tu anak raja negeri mana pulak? Aku jawab :

Perlis kot.

Haha.

Sedang seronok aku bercerita.. aku nampak kawan aku yang sorang lagi.. bukan jadi putih.
Dia bangun. Dan duduk. Terkejut jugakla. Tetiba je kan.

Lepas tu?
Dia tidur balik macam biasa.

Aku pun sambung cerita. Cerita kat kawan aku yang setia ni macam mana seorang anak raja pernah hantar emel dekat aku. Entah betul entah tidak. Aku pun tak pernah siasat. Lantaklah.

Dia pun dengar je…

Tiba-tiba.
Ada ringing.

Bukan firedrill. Tapi jam loceng kawan sebelah aku. Ooh. Dia silap set la tu. Baru pukul berapa ni.

Salah.
Kawan aku si tuan punya jam tu menghentikan ringing jam. Dia bangun.

Mungkin nak ke toilet.

Tidak. Sebab dia bawa towel. Siap gerak kawan atas dia pulak.

Aku pun tanyalah. Apa dia nak buat.

“nab.. da pukul 6 ni.. aku nak p mandi la. Kena mandi wajib hari ni.”

“Whatttttttttt????”

6?

Dan begitulah bagaimana tidur aku berakhir. Tidak bersebab. Aku masih menyesali tindakan aku yang nekad bercerita tentang raja-raja di Malaysia malam itu.

aku mungkin bukan sempurna. tapi baik.

2008-02-09T01:27:00.000-08:00

Dedikasi buat guru-guru.

Semua orang mungkin tahu. Aku bakal berjaya. Riak kan? Tapi itulah cita-cita. Inspirasiku bukanlah teman istimewa. No no juga ibu atau bapa. Mungkin weird bagi kamu, tapi aku inginkan kejayaan kerana guru-guru. Bukan menipu. Tidak juga bermuka-muka. Itu adalah aku.

Saina.
Itu sekolahku. Cinta. Kasih. Sayang. Semua disitu. Its hard to believe for this type of civilization,there are such a youngster who do love their school which not only imperfect but full of rules and kebodohan mungkin. Tidak perlu disebutkan kenapa tapi itulah yang benar. Sungguh.
Belum pernah aku dengar tentang sekolah yang mengharamkan pemakaian tee hitam. Tapi,sungguh, dah berlaku di saina. Mungkin ada sebab. Tapi tak dijelaskan. Biarlah. Ada kebaikannya mungkin. Maybe once we found a black shirt man walking step by step near girls hostel, at moment. Everyone can shout : “GGGGGGGGGGSSS!! “ a short form for ‘gila seks’.a man with no life. Mengacau bebudak hostel je kerjanya. Haha. Mungkin la kot. Jadi.sebab rule itu aku terpaksa bawa pulang tee adidas yang baru dibeli. Oh,how about kaftan ah? Lupa pulak nak Tanya sir hari itu. Tak kisahla.

Lagi?
Hurm. Aku fourth-former. Visionera . for sack of exposing my batch-name.beautiful.

Saina.
Imbas kembali. Aku menetap di sana selama 4 tahun sudah. Hampir menginjak sebenarnya. As i stayed there,tak pernah pulak aku kena panjat tangga naik dorm.mengapa jua?

Kerana .. petempatan aspuri ikut rumah sukan. Angsana di bawah. Jadi bawahlah ia.
Adil bukan?mungkin tidak bagi setiap satu daripada kamu, tapi ok bagi aku.
As a batch leader,rancangnya mau re-petempatan next year. Applying.
Tak ada kaitan.tapi ini kan blog aku.

Percaya atau tidak, aku berbelajar bahasa arab di sekolah.

Betul.
Aku juga diajar berkata benar.
Jadi kebenarannya. Aku masih tidak tahu mengira satu sampai sepuluh pun dalam bahasa itu.
Maaf. Tidak lancar sebenarnya.

Berbalik kepada tajuk asal.
Guru-guru.

Ya..mereka inspirasiku. Noktah.

You raise me up,
so i can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when i am on your shoulders
You raise me up to more than i can be

Glad that u are reading.

posting sulung di blog baru.

2008-02-08T21:15:00.000-08:00

mari bercerita tentang aku.

the name : ainnabila.
bitch of that.each of u can can call me on whatever u want to.
hell no for taking care of that.

u know what?
i am still having a mind of :
did i suppose to blogging.
maybe i shouldnt.
maybe i should.

there was a story behind a blog. once in 2005,i was blogger. that was when im 13. yes,13.budak hingusan tingkatan satu yang naive thingking. ye lahh kot. well,as for everybody,i exposed my totally life in the blog of mine.

tapi itu dulu. pengisian waktu bosan oleh kanak-kanak half mumaiyiz macam aku yang baru habis upsr. ya upsr. ancient ago.

kini aku blog kembali.
ya.

mungkin aku akan nampak lebih dewasa.
dewasa.

ya lah.
im turning to 16.tua la kann?

siapa aku?
aku adalah aku.tidak kenapa. tidak juga mengapa. aku berdiri di atas kaki sendiri. just imagine u are in my shoes. anda akan merasa banggakah? aku akan tidak. kerana aku hanya berasa gembira menjadi aku. jadi aku adalah . adalah .... mungkin masih belajar.

well,im a pelajar. tidaklah cemerlang.tidak juga bukan. aku tidak benci belajar. cuma tidak suka. but then, i have to. im to b an advocate at least. so,being a good student is a must. :). school?

let me story u bout da land of saina. or pokok sena science school. sbp. means nothing much. just a full time hostel-ier.yeah. me la tu. aku tersepit of between parent's wish n intuition of dearself.rather than behold the subjective kata hati, aku tunaikan permintaan ibu. maka,terdamparlah aku yang ketika itu berusisa 13 di bumi hijau pokok sena. ya,terdampar.
jauh dari kesibukan kota. kot. kot. tak kisahlah dimana pun sekolah aku.im grateful for what God bless me. He gave me saina. so-so proud of that.tidaklah sempurna. tapi penuh keindahan. aku tidak pula bersungguh sungguh tentang study.atau apa-apa mengenainya. mungkin kehendak-Nya aku begini. sedikit bijak dari yang bersungguh. jadi aku tidak kisah menghabiskan masa bersama notebook ku. just get rid off textbook. really.
oh yes. forgot to say. im materialistic. so, do i expected something from you? no .big no. im to find it myself. so, ada impian yang perlu dikejar. bukan perlu tapi kemestian. so, who am i?
a girl with big thingking of herself. not more not less. jadi, anda sudah tahu siapa aku.

terima kasih kerana membaca posting sulungku.