akukonflict.
yahhaaa.
apa perasaan korang,
bila orang yang korang sayang,
membuatkan korang berasa bodoh.
.bodoh.
ini la pe yang aku rasa skang.
evenly distributed
i never felt like ths before.
sorting my life sungguh-sungguh.
let me story to you :
"last week, i ve an argue with my junior.
let be of the story.
tapinya, ape yang aku gaduhkan ngn die adalah perihal
kekurangajaran.
mungkin bagi die,misunderstood,
but for me : totally rude.
ok then, then disebabkan benda tu, aku pont marah la.
and terhina juga.
benda ne melibatkan beberapa pihak .
mereka-meraka yang cuba nak menjernihkan keadaan.
.kononnya.
tapi aku tak setuju orang nak involve byk lam hal ne.
so, we met.
to settle up the matter.
alkisahnye,beliau telah membuatkan aku berasa lebih teruk.
sangat-sangat
how?
unexpectedly.just a minutes after we met.
they all gathered. she and the batch.
all girls.
to talk about how they have made me felf uncomfort.
she mentioned my name:
telling that,
"DIER(who was me) CAKAP KITA KURANG AJAR"
begitulah ala-ala maksudnye.
bayangkan, the time was around 12-1 am.
memang tak kene mase.
then, they made everybody that involved in the matters.
(a few matters like they fitnah me,they tuduh me,they tolong me,
and they kurang ajar with me or my friends) to stand up and do some
----->story telling.
purposing to make everybody in the perjumpaan understand.
ya-ya lah tu.
then,she that i told u before said many thing regarding :
'janganla kurang ajar'
macam tu la.
so, everybody guessed that :
i am the PUNCA of all.
ye la kan..
not many people can accept advises.
add that the teguran was like that.
so, they searched for my 'salah'
and accuse that
'why must we all respect the people like u : ainnabila?'
-u are such a horrible person-
-u are a prefect yang giat-
-u chose cute people to be prs-
-u force mainnah to tell u macam-macam-
-u selalu pegi surau lewat-
-u memang pulun-
-and bagai-bagai lagi-
ya-ya-ya
then the day after was the terrible of ever.
i can even see them all.
sangat tidak selesa.
that all because the perjumpaan was likely like:
ainnabila telah menegur the entire batch that the batch was rude to her.
but the one who be at the middle of the message sending was not the
batch leader, but someone who closed to ainnabila before and suddenly
she made something that made ainnabila felt that the she was rude.
the batch can not accept the messages as ainnabila is not perfect enough.
ainnabila is nobody to them.ainnabila was unelligible to receive their respect.
'siapa ainnabila untuk kita hormat?'
sesuatu yang macam tu.
so..
jadilah aku seperti seorang alien di asramaku sendiri.
seperti alien yang the batch usha-usha
----->bagai sangat tak puas hati.
kalau kamu jadi saya,
apa kamu nak buat???????
saya tidak pernah merasa apa yang budak itu buat adalah betul.
why?
because i never tell her that i want her to advice everbody.
first.
because she dont tell me that she gonna do that.
second.
because i dont know that my name wanna be mentioned.
third.
because i dont want people to judge me.
fourth.
and because :
who are they to highlight my name to make use of theirselves?
so,dear all.
i dont know what to do now.
for the meantime,
i still avoiding everybody in related with them.
i know that the girl intention was very good :
is that to make the batch better.
but she was wrong as i am the one who affected from this.
sangat terkesan.
so,if u are in my shoes?
what are u gonna do?"
email me :enabella_fannyart@yahoo.com
or do leaves me messages or comments at my friendster :
enabella budakberhinguss
or just reflect ur idea here.
saya sangat perlukan pertolongan.
