sayang sekolahhh?

off for two days.

"sekolahh saya yang indah dan disayangi ramai itu telah membenarkan banduan2 ungunya bercuti sependek DUA HARI. oklarrr. tambah2 tuk orang cam aku yang da lama tak pijak ambal rumah dan makan pakai sudu garfu ibu nehh."

deflated me.

i'll be back in school TOMORROW. this is an unpleasant thought. it isn't so because of the prospect of school, but mostly because i am running out of time to do the things i've meticulously exercised in my mind. when you make yourself a concrete picture in your mind, it materializes itself, but with a lazy, sleepy soul like mine, it's without effort that the battle is lost. i am not complaining. i say that because i can't complain.

there is time left yet to do something. most of them involves making up for the screwing up. damn, you know, i had so much hope for all that warm, fuzzy, cuddly positive stuff. i was gonna make it happen. i was pumped up. and then. and then i deflate myself. that's what. does it even help letting this all out? all i wanted to do was write. and this comes out. i guess being creative isn't something i'd like to do too. there is a long to-do list which items are of equal top priority, which i keep crossing out everyday not for completing the task, but from not wanting to do. i feel crappy. this is crap writing.

it's a miserable job as sbp student, a miserable party, a miserable time. everything is a miserable gig with a miserable self. i agree.

my way of loosening up is different form yours. we define our own world. so you may give me the advice, but don't think that you're doing me a favor by dictating me your way of doing it.haha.

P/s: sekadar melepaskan tekanan as tomorrow will be such a hell.

ko ingat ko super?

"I have scars on my hands from touching certain people"

J.D. Salinger.

serious weyyyy.

the entry above is fine to dedicated kepada manusia yang terasa. huh.