bye bye

:: thousand dreams, one team ::

i am murdered.

the cry on my face as u know that i need you.

salam semua. just to tell everybody that 'saya telah dipecat'
i was fired, was humiliated, was unappreciated, was died.

ainnabila is no longer ainnabila. she had lost her passionate, her heart and her evrything.

"saya tidak akan meletakkan sesiapa di tempat saya untuk menjadikan dia berfikiran seperti saya,enough if u can knoe how was the feel. "

alkisah pada malam lara itu:
we were gathered at d scul hall foe the meeting.. nobody knows what will happen until the word 'tarnsformation' ultered by our madam azizah.. Me? atm, i feel like satisfied on everytg that she babbled us as all them are really2 true. yah, i admitted that all.
suddenly, evrytg turns cattled.
'kita mesti tukar ainnabila' said my madam.

atm back, i feel like fainted, the tears have no end, sebak mungkin. no words ultered from me, it just that my heart was not like a heart anymore, it was more to a caburatorrrr...
it beats like it was the last hour of beating.

seperti tiada esok.

my bestfriend was cooling me down as everybody was injected with unconditionally emotion.
terkejut amat mungkin.

i dont really know how they felt, but me atm, saya rasa seperti
'this is my end of world..'

i cant recall what had actually happened in the hall when the reposition took place. nobody was willingly to replace me. i am sure bout that, but the replacement had happened, and there was no turning back.

then ..
saya pergi ke bilik kaunseling, purposing on to have some words from mrs caunselor.. i ve cried all time along there, upsetly, i felf lost, i felt like

THIS STRONG AINNABILA HAVE LOST HER STRENGHT..

THIS GOOD AINNABILA HAVE LOST HER COMPLEXION,

HER GUIDER,

HER ENZYME,

and..

HER LIFE..

Dear my all ; VISIONERA..

tiada bintang,

dapat menerangkan

hati yang telah dicelah

bagaiku lumpuh tak mampu berdiri..

terima kasih untuk semua yang anda berikan pada saya, i just cant repay evrything.. terlalu banyak yang saya belajar dari visionera,, harga hidup yang tak dapat dibayar,,life's experience that i can buy nowhere,,

siapa saya hari ini adalah apa yang saya belajar dari visionera semalam.

i developed myself from the inspiration of visionera.

visionera had tought me how life really is.

it's about to learn, improve, and considering..

human is not perfect, that's why we need to match ourselves.

friendship is the answer.

love conquers almost everything.

saya menjadi manusia bersama anda..

my deepest gratitude for my visionera..

u are my reminiscense life..

my visionera is my irreplaceable.
they are my evryting.

goodbye my visionera.

happy farewell.

sorry that i am no longer ainnabila.

mishhh ya ketat2!

.alya.mira.shat.mon2.wanie.tirah.
dyedarling.soliey.ernie.am.makdoot.
honeyzatie.ummieaida.sofeya.atikahsaffi.fas.
pina..waniZ.mirazaker.izzati.shu.
dodocomel.diana.enott.azreen.yana.
apap.emon.tipah.perk.wan.syazana.
mimi.ayu.reena.bas.eara.paah.
amytummy.hassayang.ana.zayani.
miza.anis.hanz.tiqahbakhir.anith.
tikahrodzri.wani.zatbesi.shiera.
eliza.tasya.syaza.eika.yatt.malin.
ati.farah.thesoftwawa.dayah.umishafiqah.
saharah.pae.syara.pikah.wanifendi.liyana.
hasfifa.pinat.diyana.khayatun.
fatin.kyong.lina.ku.nadia.eilliya.


haisyyyyyyyy! rindu betul!

i will tell u the truth : this is my marriage.
so,what??!

takdelahhh..tapi macam tu lar lebih kurang. saia da banyak berubah afta married to visionera. betul.

kalaula saia tidak mengenali mereka.. i will not stand as siapa yang u all lihat saia hari ini.

esp in leadershiplarrr...
tanggungjawab paling besar yang i uphold it the batch. serious. foe me lahh. i learned a lot thing about life from this position.

"jika seseorang pemimpin itu, memimpin tanpa pengikut, dia ibarat keluar bersiar-siar"
setuju?

so.. sepanjang aku dengan visionera.. aku bukannya nak guna kuasa aku sangat.. tapi lebih kepada belajar daripada kuasa yang aku ada..
paling ketara bila newcomers masuk. freshie. bagi aku.. dorg ne mcm zero jugak la pasal hostel. so,at the moment.. aku bukan bertindak sebagai ketua foe them, but more to as a new friend.. but the truth is.. aku bukannya manusia yang friendly pun! betul. my close friends pun cakap they was impressed upon my friendly-ness! hahah! tapi..fortunately la.. if not, i wud remains as ainnabila b4. yang ta pernah pedulik orang laen. cukuplah sekadar berkawan dengan tujuh orang manusia,dan aku tetap aku yang snobbish! hahaha..

alhamdulillah..semuanya ada hikmah!

lagi? huh.. aku belajar that the followers is acely the friends!
bukan! sebaliknya.
the friends is acely the follower.
absolutely.

kita mesti be friends first before the friends itself layak dipanggil follower.
aaaaa... 2 am alredy. waktu study!


`to be continued.. nite all!

menjadi skema

hye. lame tak jumpe.

neway,life changes a lot.

bdw, wanna tell u bout my last visonera gathered.
on the day of our last nite in saina
(untuk 2008 je la tapinye)

i have speeched out my "ucapan akhir tahun"
haha. as the head of the batch, to speek out is rly somthin nice. :)

so,what happend?
I hv visionised them :
TO BE A TEAM OF SCHEME PEOPLE.
SERIOUSLUY.

and,amazingly,they hv accptd the vision.

kenapa?
aku betul2 inginkan satu pasukan yang sempurna untuk visionera.
kesempurnaan yang agung,
bererti,kami juga perlu menjadik sempurna for:
.the teachers.
.the students.

n juniors of cos.
so we must leads the school for nex yer.
: towards a brighter future.
(eh,pesal macam iklan tv?)

haha.
I rly curious bour rebuilding the team.
our team of remake.next yer..

reminiscence of excellence.
of glorious achievement.

visionerakusayang : akankubawakamu. :)

do not jeolous.